Learning Log 12-31-19

Twenty years ago, as Y2K approached and the world waited with baited breath to see if our computers would stop working and banks would collapse, Pantone released it’s first colour of the year. According to a CNN article, that colour was Cerulean. Probably not a coincidence that it was a blue hue then, too. Wrapping up a decade, preparing for a new start, this twilight tone defintely depicts the winding down of a day, or time.

This colour is described as a “contemplation of where sky and sea meet;” the taste as “flowering vines;” the touch as a “soft velvety texture;” the sound as “vivid nostalgia.” (CNN)

As an artist who seldom works in colour, I’m excited to see how I can incorporate small, tasteful doses of this colour in various ways into my work throughout 2020. I am looking forward to literally weaving this classic blue into my work. Many exciting new projects on the horizon and I’m eager to bid adieu to 2019 and to greet 2020 with enthusiasm. 


Learning Log 12-30-19

So Daunting!

School is hard. The end. 

But seriously, getting the hang of how THIS school does their courses and how work is to be submitted is breaking my brain. I have these arbitrary rules and limitations in my head that are causing serious interference with my ability to actually do the work. I have been granted an extension but I’m worried that I’m not producing enough of the right kind of work for assessment. I am hoping I’ve not totally mucked up the learning log requirement, too. 

There is one day left after today in 2019. I am trying not to freak out about what my course might be missing but my tutor feedback indicates that I’m on the right track and his suggestions for what to work on are not only legit but also doable. I have to put together my samples for presentation and mount them, photograph them, and upload them to the website and send the links to my tutor. Assignment 3 will be done and once I get my feedback, I can move ahead with Assignment 4. There are only five in the unit and I have until March to wrap it all up. I can do this!! I keep thinking about quitting but that’s not what I actually want to do. I want to complete what I started and I want to do it well. Other people can earn their degrees and  can too. I’m certainly smart enough, I just need to stop being stubborn and I definitely need to stop self sabotaging. 

It’s the damndest thing, looking back on my exercises and re-reading the observations and recalling my insights from each step. I’m definitely learning but man, am I ever hard on myself. I’d love to find a way to silence the voice in my head that’s constantly whispering about my failures because when I look at the actual work, I think I’m doing ok. Not just ok, but I’m learning and expanding. I must persist. I deserve to earn my degree. 

I feel like I need to make a note in here or somewhere that working six days a week, opening a second store, trapping and dealing with the furs we harvest, as well as school is an enormous work load. I’ve got to try and keep all these balls in the air. Juggling with more hands might help? 

In other news, I saw the most amazing textures on the side of my car the other day. Dirt, salt, road grime and the pattern that emerged reminded me of the Atlantic Wolf Fish leather that I use. Who knew that road grime could be beautiful!?

Learning Log – Assignment 2 Feedback

Receiving feedback is such a fraught experience. Submitting my work for evaluation is nerve wracking and definitely an exercise in vulnerability. Having another human measure the quality and quantity of my artistic output is not my favourite thing BUT since my goal is to stretch and grow as an artist, this seems a necessary evil. 

My Assignment 2 feedback has come back (after some technical delays) and there are upsides and downsides to what my tutor had to say. Most was positive and really useful. 

My exercise posts are too wordy and diary-like. I am to pare down the text to speaking about what I’m surprised by and what I’m learning. Less feelings and process and more factual reflection. This is not my writing style so that is a work in progress. I’m definitely not adjusting well to this feedback as this is the second time this has been brought up. 

It’s possible that I need to produce even more volume of work than I have until now which is daunting. I am not sure how to carve out even more time to do this but must persist. I will do my best. 

I’ve been given instructions to vary colours and materials to convey mood. I hope my next assignment satisfies that, however, I am going to review each of the posts before submitting them (as I’ve already done the work and am ready to submit it) to ensure that the journaling style and content is a better fit for the feedback from this assignment.